I have repented of my sins

June 11, 2013

If you could see tomorrow what difference would it make?
Would it be so easy to make the same mistakes?
If you could see the faces of all those you love?
Standing in the doorway, holding back the flood.
What would you say? Would it be the truth?
Could there be forgiveness for all you put them through.
Don’t walk away. Reach out and say…
I know I’ve hurt you, I know I’ve let you down.
When you needed me I was not around
And I’m sorry for my selfish ways
Please forgive the same mistakes
If you had just one moment to let it all be known
Would you stand silent and deny your own
Could you feel the longing, the pleading of an eye
Or would you be cold-hearted, too dead inside to cry
Don’t walk away, reach out and say…
I know I’ve hurt you, I know I’ve let you down.
When you needed me I was not around
And I’m sorry for my selfish ways
Please forgive the same mistakes
Is it too late to reach out, stretch an open hand?
However did it come to this? I don’t understand.
Don’t walk away, reach out and say…
I know I’ve hurt you, I know I’ve let you down.
When you needed me I was not around
And I’m sorry for my selfish ways
Please forgive the same mistakes

My dearest Shonna,
I hope you are well and blessed I got your letter today and thank you for your honesty and fellowship with the situation at hand (quick claim deed).  Please don’t be so fast to judge (Matthew 7:1-5, Luke 6:37) that I am not telling you the truth.  You said you have been waiting 6 months for me to get this done. There is a process write-up but, that is a bad idea makes you a target for poor treatment.  Based on my track record I understand your disbelief but, please know I am a new creation (still a work in progress) but forgiven non the less (2 Corinthians 2:5-11).  I will continue to work at getting this done.  My free staff boss at TTA and officer Rodriguez are still trying to help me as they have for the past few weeks. I agree I have lied to you in the past.  I lied to myself as well! Do I repent that daily in the name of Jesus Christ? Yes, I do!  You refer to many things I did that was not part of our marriage covenant?  I agree some club stuff, partying with friends, etc. but, you seem to forget more good, great and wonderful things. Please read 1 Corinthians 13 again.  Please don’t use worldly thinking but, thing and speak in the spirit. I am not defending any of my actions Because, I was wrong!  I was trapped in sin. The decisions I made, based on the demons I surrounded myself with, the lies, I called my life.  All wrong Shonna.  But, I do and always will love you, those kids and your family!  That old devil had me wrapped and thinking I was right!  But, now I am reborn!! Is any of this too much to be true? Not according to my Tyndale study bible (new living translation) You ask about my speaking of my gift of leadership and go on to say ‘admiration of self’ I was simply making reference to 1 Corinthians 12:28-31 and that I eagerly desire that helpful gift to help spread Gods word and love to all.  This gift may be used in me by God to plant a seed. I am not boasting or being self-important There is no glory in that. But, I thank you for pointing out the words I choose do not always empower my intentions.  With the sins I have been forgiven for. The steadfast, unconditional love, I have been given and to be called the son of God, given an able to love and support me only to fail to sin and worldly lies, twice but still forgiven. I can only be humble and thankful for so many things!! I will never forget the man in the mirror I left behind or the sins I have committed in past time.  Please know I try daily to get this done and I will not fail!  This Thursday if I can’t get in to see her yet again. I will go over her head and let the chips fall on my head as they will.  But, I will not or have not lied to you again!  Again, I wish to say I am sorry for all I have done as a worldly man sick with sin.  I love you Shonna and that is true. I know you know that so please read Romans 2:1-4, 3:21-31, 6:1-14. Romans 8:28-39, 10:1-13 Ecclesiastes 3:116-17 and Matthew 3:11-12 I will stop for now but, please continue to fellowship with me. I can’t wait for you and I to sit down together with the word!  I know that will happen.  I have great strong faith!! Funny as I write this letter at 1901 hours on June 11, 2013 the song, I will always love you by The Cure is on radio 94.7 do you hear the words see the signs. I sure do, now for the right things. I used to tell you, you have binders on, but, I was the blind one geesh! I called everyone the walking dead but,, that was me!! Well I hope my next letter will enclose your quick deed.  Since our divorce is final I will say with love an blessings from your adoring and unworthy husband Kenn.  P.S. give my love to all and please read the cited scriptures.

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